I need to get drunk.

sounds a little stupid I know, but, you know...

sometimes people just need to let go of being sober.

especially me 'Cuz you know, I can't open up.

even yesterday, I talked to a friend and I said I'm tired of this life and I really wanted to kill myself and he asked me "why? what happened?" and I just couldn't tell him 'Cuz I won't open up to people when I'm sober.

opening up to people puts you in a problematic position that one person knows more about you and your feelings then you know about him and it's kinda weak position.

So as I said, I need to get drunk.

you know, every one had it once that they got really drunk and grabbed a friend or just an individual, and you're half crying and ordered him or her "Sit down, I want to talk!" and he/she did set and made a big mistake 'Cuz now you're talking and crying over his/hers sholder about all of your trubles in the world.

I need to let go of my emotions otherwise I'll get nutts!

I fucking need to get drunk

alcohol any one?

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Devils Doll - Dies Irae (part 6&7)