K i'll begin with my apologies for my bad english, there's no hebrew over here
so if i make some mistakes..well you know, sorry i'm trying my best !
Anyways....i've been stuck in here for like a month or so, that sucks, i miss everything..and i mean EVERYTHENG
I don't even know why but everything just went down hill since i got here. My weight just took off to the sky about
three weeks ago -russin grandma ugh- to fuking 65 Kg
and i was all like, Wut. how did that happened, when did that happend WTF like how could i let myself go like that?!?! and in that sad moment, Ana just knocked on the door and she was all like, Oh hey! i'm back from . my vacation lol and now i'll fucking save your retarded ass from becoming a real life cow. Fucking halleluja
About a week ago i've started to count the calories, and by now i have lost 3 Kg! First time in a while that i have felt that kind of happiness, the feeling that fed every single person in the whole world, the joy of getting a good grade at an important subject or getting promoted or even getting the person that you love and chased for a long time. The feeling of success. That's what keeps us going .
Many people don't care about their weight, gain some, lose some, absolutely pointless. Maybe they're right, but what i know is that i like this feeling, i like the results of it and i'll even dare to say love them, it's addictive, .dangerous maybe, hurtful. Beautiful
.I will be beautiful . And nothing will stop me
55Kg